T • SAX ♫ 4:32 PM

i'd like to think that it's a swan

it's almost alive.

but funny how it belongs to the school and i believe its mine. 

(yanagisawa t901 tenor saxophone)

sabah + rant 2:47 AM

more than a year since i properly posted something. not sure why i decide to bother saying something again. i realised i have a draft post which i completely forgot about..

so many things happened this year.. busy until i don't have time to blog. lol. shall slowly update my blog cos its pretty dead.. shall start with pre-obs first. :P

14 October
last day of assessment wk, a.k.a my birthday, a.k.a one day before obs. everyone left the school before 11 after the last paper (physics) while i had to stay until 2+ for acc. physics test. pfft. totally flunk the test. afterwards went windows shopping with viv, yingli and carene at orchard.. got lost on my way there. lol. went there no more than 5 times.

15 October

went to the airport at around 3. thought i was late when yinghang was even later. lols. the woman at baggage check in asked me where i was going and i don't even know. fail. boarded the plane to kota kinabalu at ard 5. it was a 2h flight. resisted myself from buying any food on the plane when almost everyone else was spamming cup noodles. after arrival we boarded obs vans and travelled to base camp at sabah. the further the van travelled away from kota kinabalu the more ulu the place became. roads didn't even have streetlights and we travelled in complete darkness, except lights from road side houses that only appears once in a while. 30min later we reached base camp and we entered the assembly hall. more like an abandoned indoor badminton court. mysterious animals were flying on the ceiling below the roof. at first we though those were bats.. then we realise they were only birds. and there are so much bird poo on the floor. no wonder no one wants to play badminton there. later get bombed by bird poo. as there were only 20 people we were grouped into two groups. my group had yinghang (aka. seah), lingyan (aka. ling) , izza, tammy, xiancher (aka. cher), wilson , kinming (aka. kin), mingyi (aka. ming), dikaios and me (aka. hu). our instructors were Rechel and Edy (aka. E.D, aka. Sukardi). we were the Rajah Brookes and the other group were the Mat Salleh. we gave them our valuables, had dinner at the dining hall, and went to our dorms to sleep. 

16 October

woke up, morning PT, ice breakers, breakfast, goal setting, can't remember cos it was very slack...

17 October

PT, learn how to use parang,

 

in short we climb mountains and crossed rivers. it's almost like having orgasm to think about it. :) thats how exciting it is lol. anyway on the last day of trekking it began to rain really heavily. mud became soft and rivers were flooded. while testing waters Edy got almost flushed away. luckily he stood his ground after floating away several meters. thought he was gonna die. The next day we packed up and flew back to singapore. Made friends but expectedly we disintegrated. except lingyan and shawn. but we're not so close now. don't think we were even close. maybe i was just sick of everyone around me. i was just eager to make new friends and find one that is worth me spending time with.

i still am, though. its hard communicating with them. most of the times its just awkward. there's not a time when i can totally pour my hearts out without fearing that we'll having contradicting views. normally people still have their secondary friends to rely on, and i only have those p6 kiddies frozen inside my memory. being 3 years together can be really exhausting. people begin to change, and some for the worse. never thought that i'll ever be able to talk to him the same way again after the conflict happened last year, though i still cant look at him the same way. never thought she can be so conceited and obsessed with how 'unique' she is. no one wants to hear how much she love her damned self. she should get the fuck over herself. i didnt give a damn in the past, but this year it's just to much. so many people are telling me how cocky she is. i don't really wanna hear them actually. it just makes me angry over nothing. she doesn't even matter in my life. how am i gonna survive for another year like this? im getting badly influenced throughout these 3 years. i can see that im not the same anymore. everything is getting messed up inside. njc is fucked up too. actually im saying this just because i didnt get into sapphire scholars. sapphire scholars don't matter to me but i can't stand the fact that nj is so focused on developing leaders that they forget the rest of us. i was once in the dean's list too, hello?! now im at the bottom half. no matter how much desperate i am they never provided any help. all the resources are allocated to the elites. if i have went back in time maybe i wouldn't choose to come to nj, though i dun really regret. don't mind going to victoria though. maybe i'll be happier there.

but what can i do now. olevels is coming and the chinese department is spamming homework. we have no time for so much homework have they got no brain? what have they been doing for the part 3 years? i can't understand how retarded they are at curriculum planning. squeezing everything on the last year doesn't help. i have no time. partially because i spend 70% of my time in school for lessons, 2 ccas and council. 15% for sleep and the last 15% for homework and bullshit. i barely have time to facebook, which is a good thing. people asks me why i take up so many ccas. im not sure. i dun think i can live with one cca for a year. it would be so boring. i guess i needed variety to keep my interest alive. i think i need help.

RETREAT RETREAT RETREAT! :D 2:12 AM

so last week some of the councillors including dikaios and i went to harbour front for SH orientation recce. EVEN THOUGH im not in orientation comm. I’m like, so nice right??? but actually hor, i didnt know what recce meant until i checked google, and it’s a short form for reconnaissance. interesting… anyway basically we went around harbour front to find good places for orientation treasure hunt stations. it was super fun. we first walked around st. james power station, then we’ve visited mount faber. we had lunch at vivo and went to Telok Blangah Hill Park and hit the summit of mount faber again, where there is this pretty huge merlion lol. also dikaios tried use the coin operated binoculars to view the gorgeous scenery. not only did the coin dropped and rolled into the grass patch below and could not be found, he later realised that the binoculars were spoilt so we dont have to pay to use them! LOL FAIL. so the view is tooooo awesome. So sad amanda hasn’t upload shots taken with her dslr camera. if not i could show it here. and this would look less boring. ANYWAYS, the view was soooo beautiful, we all agreed that it doesn’t even look like singapore! there were also some china tourists, and they reminded me of the memories back in china. china parks tots pwn singapore parks seriously!

so we’ve walked more than 12km, according to dikaios((: if you are interested, the 1st station  for the treasure hunt was at the bridge outside st. james power station. they’re planning to hang something down from the bridge and a guy will have to carry a girl so that she is tall enough to take the thing down.. something like last year’s orientation at sentosa. the 2nd station has something got to do with a hidden cave on mount faber. the OGLs will hide few of the orientees and the rest will have to search for them and finally get to the cave to save them. lol….. 3rd station is to squeeze ALL THE ORIENTEES (around 20 ppl) into ONE cable car! HAHA. those fat asses are gonna get drunk. 4th station is to search for an particular object on a painting on mount fabour, 5th is to do some games on henderson waves bridge!

omg that is one awesome bridge! you guys should go visit it with ur family or whoever. it’s the highest pedestrian bridge in singapore if i have a gf i would bring her here.  so romanic, especially at night with the warm lightings to bring the cosy feeling. TEEHEEE.

i could not remember whats the last station already haha. i think they have to take 10 photos with the word Harbour Front. kinda lame for me.. hehe.

ALSO related to council, THE WEEK AFTER NEXT IS COUNCIL RETREATTTTTTT OOHH EMMM GEEEEE. we’re going to malaysia!!!! (again lol) I’M SUPER EXCITED. because it would be about 2 full days of council planning and reflection, 1 day of learning journey.. and half a day of shopping i guess. the schedule is quite tight though. so im not so sure about the shopping part.. but i still have 100+ riggits left after the JH2 IH malacca trip. so I can use those. OH speaking of IH fieldtrip, i got fullmarks for the booklet thingy (not being competitive here, just super elated ) and there’re some really funny comments made by the teachers. AHHH MEMORIES MEMORIES. i also remember in the hotel room dominic randomly showed me his abs LOL. and he was giving me the FLIRTATIOUS LOOK zomg. for a second i thought i was going to lose my virginity.  

Anyway back to retreat, tammy’s gonna get some emotional suffering….. lol. since her heart is made of GLASS. heh. jk…… she’s gonna get teased for some evil pranks which VANESSA CHIN and the other jr. councillors did. sigh~~~ sad lol.

also next week i’m going to meet MR TEO TZE WEI ZOMG! cos he’s gonna teach me and few other ppl body combat lol! it will be definitely a new experience……. bahahaha…. im scared actually.. hehe. scared that he will pick on me and my uniform. but should be no prob cos i cut my hair today  

And my brother has got something wrong with his heart when he was born, but it’s alright now. so on friday i went to KK hospital with my parents for his checkup just to be sure. the doctor also checked his testicles. so apparently when male babies grow older at about 1 to 1 and half years old their testicles will move down, like hanging, instead of being stuck up there… interesting..~ good to know if you’r gonna to have a child or be a baby doctor. because if it doesn’t move down the baby will have to do operation!!!! when i first heard it i was like, WHAT?? operation at such a young age?? hell nooooo. haha.

So anyways im getting NEW SPECS!!! because there’s this shop in KK hospital called ngee ann optics selling cheap specs! like one for $38 dollars!! that’s the price you get if you buy from malaysia whohoo. so instead of travelling to malaysia to buy specs, my dad bought 2 for me and one costed $48 and the other called $94 or so. yayayayayayayayaay. NGEE ANN OPTICS FTW!!! anyway the specs im wearing now is almost broken so its time for new specs!!!!!! so on wednesday after body combat with mr teo tze wei im gonna get my new specs yay!!!!

I’ve also cleaned up my whole room during the holidays include my wardrobe and i feel SATISFIED cleaning stuff makes me happy((: and i’ve realised there’s some decent shirts and pants in my wardrobe so i dun have to always wear my orange shirt alreadyyy!