fuck this

walao rush into the room scold me for no goddamn reason. what did i do wrong? i thot u only cared abt my grades and nth else? so now u scold me for not talking to u. u say i dun pay enough respect to u. but dont u know my last paper is on thurs? will i not talk to u when its after my exam? okay fine. quit council. i will quit. and now u wanna stop my piano also. stop la like i heck care. i am so sick and tired of all these. i know u want to me get onto deans list. so will you LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME MUG FOR CHEM? stop interfering my life. u sent me for dsa and accepted dunman high n now i cnt get into hci NOR dunman high but stuck in this bullshit school which has a principle who want to build a $25000 clock in the gym. srsly i study so hard for what? what’s the point of those sleepless nights and all the effort i put in? whats the point of me trying so hard to get A for LA and A+ for sci? whats the point of me now mugging for chem? yes i dun feel like mugging for chem already. seriously do u have nothing better to do? can’t u give me some encouragement instead of coming in so many times just to scold me.?cant you just understand i am very stressed right now and stop trying to make me feel worse. argh. do you want to make me commit suicide on my birthday? if you want i can lah. but please my life now is not only about parents, and what parents say and what you want me to do. i have a life on my own. i have canoeing,  and my own friends. i know what i want in life and stop telling me what to do.   i want to enjoy my life. can you stop making me feel guilty for everything  i do? i didnt even have a normal childhood cos u locked me inside the house 24h a day and i dun even get to play with the kids outside.  i know u want the best for me but what you are doing is not the best for me and only making me feel worse. i really want to enjoy my life now cos i know everything will change when i become an adult. so stop it i beg u. i cant take it anymore.