so many things happened this year.. busy until i don't have time to blog. lol. shall slowly update my blog cos its pretty dead.. shall start with pre-obs first. :P14 October
last day of assessment wk, a.k.a my birthday, a.k.a one day before obs. everyone left the school before 11 after the last paper (physics) while i had to stay until 2+ for acc. physics test. pfft. totally flunk the test. afterwards went windows shopping with viv, yingli and carene at orchard.. got lost on my way there. lol. went there no more than 5 times.
15 October
went to the airport at around 3. thought i was late when yinghang was even later. lols. the woman at baggage check in asked me where i was going and i don't even know. fail. boarded the plane to kota kinabalu at ard 5. it was a 2h flight. resisted myself from buying any food on the plane when almost everyone else was spamming cup noodles. after arrival we boarded obs vans and travelled to base camp at sabah. the further the van travelled away from kota kinabalu the more ulu the place became. roads didn't even have streetlights and we travelled in complete darkness, except lights from road side houses that only appears once in a while. 30min later we reached base camp and we entered the assembly hall. more like an abandoned indoor badminton court. mysterious animals were flying on the ceiling below the roof. at first we though those were bats.. then we realise they were only birds. and there are so much bird poo on the floor. no wonder no one wants to play badminton there. later get bombed by bird poo. as there were only 20 people we were grouped into two groups. my group had yinghang (aka. seah), lingyan (aka. ling) , izza, tammy, xiancher (aka. cher), wilson , kinming (aka. kin), mingyi (aka. ming), dikaios and me (aka. hu). our instructors were Rechel and Edy (aka. E.D, aka. Sukardi). we were the Rajah Brookes and the other group were the Mat Salleh. we gave them our valuables, had dinner at the dining hall, and went to our dorms to sleep.
16 October
woke up, morning PT, ice breakers, breakfast, goal setting, can't remember cos it was very slack...
17 October
PT, learn how to use parang,
in short we climb mountains and crossed rivers. it's almost like having orgasm to think about it. :) thats how exciting it is lol. anyway on the last day of trekking it began to rain really heavily. mud became soft and rivers were flooded. while testing waters Edy got almost flushed away. luckily he stood his ground after floating away several meters. thought he was gonna die. The next day we packed up and flew back to singapore. Made friends but expectedly we disintegrated. except lingyan and shawn. but we're not so close now. don't think we were even close. maybe i was just sick of everyone around me. i was just eager to make new friends and find one that is worth me spending time with.
i still am, though. its hard communicating with them. most of the times its just awkward. there's not a time when i can totally pour my hearts out without fearing that we'll having contradicting views. normally people still have their secondary friends to rely on, and i only have those p6 kiddies frozen inside my memory. being 3 years together can be really exhausting. people begin to change, and some for the worse. never thought that i'll ever be able to talk to him the same way again after the conflict happened last year, though i still cant look at him the same way. never thought she can be so conceited and obsessed with how 'unique' she is. no one wants to hear how much she love her damned self. she should get the fuck over herself. i didnt give a damn in the past, but this year it's just to much. so many people are telling me how cocky she is. i don't really wanna hear them actually. it just makes me angry over nothing. she doesn't even matter in my life. how am i gonna survive for another year like this? im getting badly influenced throughout these 3 years. i can see that im not the same anymore. everything is getting messed up inside. njc is fucked up too. actually im saying this just because i didnt get into sapphire scholars. sapphire scholars don't matter to me but i can't stand the fact that nj is so focused on developing leaders that they forget the rest of us. i was once in the dean's list too, hello?! now im at the bottom half. no matter how much desperate i am they never provided any help. all the resources are allocated to the elites. if i have went back in time maybe i wouldn't choose to come to nj, though i dun really regret. don't mind going to victoria though. maybe i'll be happier there.
but what can i do now. olevels is coming and the chinese department is spamming homework. we have no time for so much homework have they got no brain? what have they been doing for the part 3 years? i can't understand how retarded they are at curriculum planning. squeezing everything on the last year doesn't help. i have no time. partially because i spend 70% of my time in school for lessons, 2 ccas and council. 15% for sleep and the last 15% for homework and bullshit. i barely have time to facebook, which is a good thing. people asks me why i take up so many ccas. im not sure. i dun think i can live with one cca for a year. it would be so boring. i guess i needed variety to keep my interest alive. i think i need help.
